Can someone feel like they are stupid , can they ? .

Can someone feel like they are stupid , can they ? . Yes they can . I'm feeling like a dumb person rite now . My english paper . My essay . I think even a Form 1 student can write better than what i wrote for my essay . It was cheesy , it was flat and it was dull . I think even the trip to the supermarket has much more interesting parts . When i had wanted to start on my essay , I had writer's block . I wasted 15 minutes . During that 15 minutes I stared at nothing waiting for ideas to come pouring in . I felt like crying . I felt like screaming . I was even shivering . I looked at my classmates and they all had started writing like nobody business . I talked to my sister about it . And I told my sister that I was hoping that after my english paper i wont have to think much about it or even worry about it . That i thought i would just aced it without having to think much about it . And so she said '' maybe you were a little bit over confident and so your brain did not get to work properly'' . And i guess she is right . But whatever it is . I had done my best . And the rest I'll leave it to Allah . :( .

I hate myself .

Yes me .

Me .

:( .

Suffocated .

I was sleeping like a log jnw , until i was awaken by a nightmarish dream of me suffocating . I dreamed that even though i breathe as hard that I could , I still could not feel the satisfaction of breathing and I was getting really really scared . And suddenly I was awake . Then , I noticed that my face was kissing the pillow and that was the cause of me feeling like i was suffocating . Oh , what a nightmare , because it turned out to be real .

Note: Even though I sleep for like about 4 hours I still feel so tired . :(( . ughhh .

Bum Mer .

Just went back from pavillion . ;( . What a bummer . Didnt get to watch any movie . The reason was that there was no nice movie as all the movie that are on me and my family had watch . Bummer bummer . :( .

Dark

Grrr ! .

I spend the last 5 hours in dark .

I hate the TNB people .

I had to study in the dark , eat in the dark and bath in the dark .

Damn them ! .

Scary .

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh ! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! .

That was what i heard when I was studying . Me and my sister was downstairs when we heard that loud screaming . We were downstairs at that time and I was quite shocked to hear that kind of screaming . Then we went out to check and we saw our neighbours were all outside too . They all were trying to find the source of that screaming . One of our neighbours said mana dia ? . Dia pergi mana ? . And he looked like he was about to go after someone . Then i realised that someone had been 'ragut' . We were all looking and searching but as it was really dark none of us saw anything . Then out of sudden this two motorist which was the policemen zoom quickly infront of our houses . I guess they were trying to catch the 'peragut' .

That incident makes me scared ouh . I know bangsar have lots of peraguts but i never nampak that kind of incident with my own eyes .

p/s : I hope the peraguts have been arrested . ;/

Terrified .

Ouh GOD ! .

Its third November already .

I have another 15 more days until there are no more turning backs and regretting .

I'm not even yet ready .

It is my future and I have absolutely no confidence in it .

Damn it .