Yes . I think I am suffering from it . It is actually pretty frightening I tell you . I used to be this laid back girl who couldn't care less about anything , exams , what people say or just about anything . I am so relaxed that even when people are going crazy caused by their exams I can still be on my lappy and online-ing my ass off . Yes , I was that care-free .
Now even the slightest thing can make me go berserk and make me worry like hell . I worry about lots of stuff . Me dying , hell , my parents dying , the last day , bad people , this and that . What I can say is that I worry about things people around my age won't even care until they are old . I worry about not being able to my old self . I worry that I will be like this until I am old and I'll die cause I worry so much .
What I hate about having anxiety attacks is that you feel hopeless , you feel as though there are no one for you to reach out to and ask for help . I sometimes cry out of the blue because of I worry so much . Even when I am with my closed ones I don't feel safe . I feel as though everyone else is happy but me .
I want to go to the shrink so that I could some meds . When I told my mom about the idea she said the meds won't help you in the long run . I kinda know about that but I just want to stop worrying but now I am trying my best to cope with it . I know when this phase is over I will come out a strong person . Insya-Allah .
