I always feel sad about this . I feel like I am being loved less by my mother . As much as I hate to actually say it , I can actually feel it . And it makes me really sad . Sister said I am being ungrateful when I ask about things like that . It has never been about that .
Mom was angry when I said I want to beli this baju at Ms. Read and somehow I get to know that mom bought my sister a baju . If you were me what would you feel ? . Maybe I'm too sensitive but I dunno . I hate unfairness . I pray to Allah I will never do that to my children . I WILL TRY INSYA-ALLAH . I know how bad it feels . How painful it is . I know parents could not help loving one of their children more but can they at least not show it ? . Just to jaga my feelings ? Please , cause it hurts really bad .
I used to be independent and my sister is a bit dependent so yeah she actually gets more attention than I do . I am trying to be nice for the sake of Allah but it is so hard . She hit me but I didn't hit her back . I am actually proud I didn't balas her . Thank you Allah . You see when you do something evil to other people you will actually feel very guilty about it . And the guilt feeling is powerful . :)
I pray that we both have better Akhlak insya-Allah :) .
