One Sad Night :( .

Its 4.37 am and my sister is making noise and asking me to go to bed . But i refused to ikot her ckp , well duhh , if not i will not be writing this rite now . My heart is beating really fast rite now as i kept on thinking about SPM which is getting nearer every minute of everyday . I am so scared that i will do everything that i can to avoid my textbooks . This is because everytime i try to study i will be a nervous wreck (i cant seem to know where to start , everytime i flip through the pages i realise that i still have so much more to learn n time is ticking away ) I feel so nervous all the time and only god knows how nervous and scared i feel everyday .I tried studying science just now , with my lappie on and well yeah i get distracted and i have been online from tadi until now . I feel that raya this year was no fun . We didnt balik kampung and it made matters worst . If balik kampung atleast i am on a holiday or atleast i feel like i am on a holiday . But if raya in KL it just seems to be like any other day . I am hoping after spm to parteyy like hell ( when i say party i mean sleep all day long, kluar with frens , watch movie n stuffs :P ) . I really hope so . :) . Thats all for now . Atleast i feel better now . :P . Nitey nitey .