A Big Lesson To Learn In Just One Night .

I'm a quitter ? .
Maybe I am , maybe i am not . I cried again today due to my father's comment . He was asleep in the car when suddenly my sister said to my dad ,

S : Abah tahu ke what are aliah's plans she nak buat on her car ? .
Me : Heh ? . Ouh , I want to custom paint my car . Hehe . And kan keje ngan abah , so I can get
the money and do it on my own .
Abah : Eh , but kalau keje memberasangkan bleh lah . ( what he nak ckp is that I did not do a
good work ) .
Me : I dont have the experience of course lah tak suka sgt buat .
My dad said something else and it was really ughh . Menyakitkan hati .

So , then my chin was quivering and I really wanted to cry , but I was in the car , so I tell myself to chin up . Take a breath . Sabar .

My dad's comments was rather pedas . And it hit me like a lorry hitting a wall . :( .

Masa makan my dad ckp about giving the work to someone else , and of course me with my very big ego had to lawan him . So I said :

FINE ! . I quit . And my dad said something lagi which upset me more . And make me cry once again . And by then my mom wants to prevent World War II from happening , she said , aliah still wants to have fun , and she's not ready . Just let her enjoy her holidays first . My dad just keep quiet after that .

Maybe I deserve it . But there is a better way to talk to me . And believe me , I wont forget about this easily . Actually it is worst than this . But it is kinda private , and I intend for it to be that way .

I wrote this with a sore feeling and a wounded heart .
:( .